Reflection of my week......"Just fine"
As I woke with a smile on my face and the comfortable roll out of my bed this morning, looking forward to my workout and the day ahead of me, I can't help but to think back to the week I had.
I walked past the mirror in the dark this morning on my way to getting my big mug of water and I decided that I would check myself out. I noticed my skin was a lot looser over the last few days, but haven't really checked myself out naked for a while....it wasn't the usual "enjoying" of my body and how it's changing as I usually do, but more of a quick check. My mind has shifted into a different mode lately. Fighter mode. And at this time it is necessary. I have been struggling AGAINST severe exposure to perfume, cigarette smoke, and mold toxins and it has been mood-altering. It puts me on edge, makes me angry and irate and I have to refuse to let it affect who I am and how I want to be, positive and forward thinking. I can't focus and dwell on things out of my control. The choices of others are just that, their choices. But I CAN choose to protect myself, my health, and in turn the protection and care of my family, by doing what I can to make change or get out of the way.
I sent through my response to the condo management on Friday after making numerous phone calls and speaking with those with more knowledge and leverage to put across my point. I must say that my dealings with my condo manager have turned into something more than just basic repairs. After attending the condo annual meeting on Monday, my self and my neighbour experienced the same feeling from the board (and manager) and it is time to make a change. In our entire complex, the row that we live down is the most neglected. But the attitudes that were shared at the meeting confirmed the reasons why. Their assumption is that the people in that area (with exception to the few owners that live there) don't care to take care of where they live. So they are choosing to do nothing since they assume it's just going to get damaged again. NO GOOD! I won't go into too much detail, but I am choosing to be a voice against that matter, among many others. When I received the phone call from condo management on Wednesday and she shared what she had to say as well as some of her opinions I had to cut her off. She expressed what she called for and that was all I needed to hear. She was proceeding to attack me personally with false information and I do not take that in.
So what did I learn this week?
I need to finish doing my laundry. My dirty laundry was getting to be an issue. It was temporary, but when you are under a microscope and the way you are living is being criticized, you need to be above reproach.
I really don't eat much when I am stressed. I had to use my children asking me for food as a guide to eat. I worked hard all week and made sure to focus of expressing my love and gratitude to my husband as he was stressed by it all as well (on top of everything else).
Do not give your pearls to pigs. Don't waste your energy on giving information that will not be received or taken out of context to be used against you. Need-to-know basis has come to a new level of meaning.
Surround yourself with love and support and give it as you receive it. Although this trial is similar to ones we experienced in the past, this time around we were enveloped with love and support. Protected by a barrier that came so fast and furious to shield us from harm in our time of need, that the situation was reduced to a mere rainstorm in our summer weather. Thank you!
Keep moving forward. Don't be "interrupted" in what you set out to do by unexpected bumps in life. We travel on the same road .....the conditions of the road are never certain and sometimes other drivers do their own thing. That's just a part of driving.....I mean life hehe.
And to close, I love Mary J Blige. As I pushed through the challenges of the week, I listened to "Just fine" over and over again. I even did my intervals dancing to it. I loved singing to it and I am going to leave out with the lyrics to the song. Have a great day and a great week! (the song is also on my page under my music).
Let it go...
Can't let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, go do what you want to do
Can't let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I'm winning
It's been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right
So I like what I see when I'm looking at me
When I'm walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain't worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just...
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just fine
Feels so good, when you're doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I'm not complaining
And I'm a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I'm so glad I got mine
So I like what I see when I'm looking at me
When I'm walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I'm a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just...
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won't change my life, my life's just fine
I aint gon' let nothing get in my way
(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I ain't gon' let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say
Feels so good, when you're doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It's a really good thing to say
That I won't change my life, my life's just fine
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won't change my life, my life's just fine
So I like what I see when I'm looking at me
When I'm walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain't worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain't gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just...
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just fine
I walked past the mirror in the dark this morning on my way to getting my big mug of water and I decided that I would check myself out. I noticed my skin was a lot looser over the last few days, but haven't really checked myself out naked for a while....it wasn't the usual "enjoying" of my body and how it's changing as I usually do, but more of a quick check. My mind has shifted into a different mode lately. Fighter mode. And at this time it is necessary. I have been struggling AGAINST severe exposure to perfume, cigarette smoke, and mold toxins and it has been mood-altering. It puts me on edge, makes me angry and irate and I have to refuse to let it affect who I am and how I want to be, positive and forward thinking. I can't focus and dwell on things out of my control. The choices of others are just that, their choices. But I CAN choose to protect myself, my health, and in turn the protection and care of my family, by doing what I can to make change or get out of the way.
I sent through my response to the condo management on Friday after making numerous phone calls and speaking with those with more knowledge and leverage to put across my point. I must say that my dealings with my condo manager have turned into something more than just basic repairs. After attending the condo annual meeting on Monday, my self and my neighbour experienced the same feeling from the board (and manager) and it is time to make a change. In our entire complex, the row that we live down is the most neglected. But the attitudes that were shared at the meeting confirmed the reasons why. Their assumption is that the people in that area (with exception to the few owners that live there) don't care to take care of where they live. So they are choosing to do nothing since they assume it's just going to get damaged again. NO GOOD! I won't go into too much detail, but I am choosing to be a voice against that matter, among many others. When I received the phone call from condo management on Wednesday and she shared what she had to say as well as some of her opinions I had to cut her off. She expressed what she called for and that was all I needed to hear. She was proceeding to attack me personally with false information and I do not take that in.
So what did I learn this week?
I need to finish doing my laundry. My dirty laundry was getting to be an issue. It was temporary, but when you are under a microscope and the way you are living is being criticized, you need to be above reproach.
I really don't eat much when I am stressed. I had to use my children asking me for food as a guide to eat. I worked hard all week and made sure to focus of expressing my love and gratitude to my husband as he was stressed by it all as well (on top of everything else).
Do not give your pearls to pigs. Don't waste your energy on giving information that will not be received or taken out of context to be used against you. Need-to-know basis has come to a new level of meaning.
Surround yourself with love and support and give it as you receive it. Although this trial is similar to ones we experienced in the past, this time around we were enveloped with love and support. Protected by a barrier that came so fast and furious to shield us from harm in our time of need, that the situation was reduced to a mere rainstorm in our summer weather. Thank you!
Keep moving forward. Don't be "interrupted" in what you set out to do by unexpected bumps in life. We travel on the same road .....the conditions of the road are never certain and sometimes other drivers do their own thing. That's just a part of driving.....I mean life hehe.
And to close, I love Mary J Blige. As I pushed through the challenges of the week, I listened to "Just fine" over and over again. I even did my intervals dancing to it. I loved singing to it and I am going to leave out with the lyrics to the song. Have a great day and a great week! (the song is also on my page under my music).
Let it go...
Can't let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, go do what you want to do
Can't let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I'm winning
It's been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right
So I like what I see when I'm looking at me
When I'm walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain't worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just...
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just fine
Feels so good, when you're doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I'm not complaining
And I'm a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I'm so glad I got mine
So I like what I see when I'm looking at me
When I'm walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I'm a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just...
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won't change my life, my life's just fine
I aint gon' let nothing get in my way
(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I ain't gon' let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say
Feels so good, when you're doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It's a really good thing to say
That I won't change my life, my life's just fine
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won't change my life, my life's just fine
So I like what I see when I'm looking at me
When I'm walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain't worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain't gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just...
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just fine
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